My heart is heavy. My dear 90yo great grandpa fell multiple times last month with the last fall putting him in the hospital and then a nursing home. 
He also has cancer and other health problems.
We went up to see him yesterday and when we got to his room I was sure we were at the wrong room because I did not recognize him and when I saw his name tag on the door, my heart sank! He has changed so much since I saw him last and I’m just so sad. He is on medication that has done this to him… not only has it changed him physically, but the meds make him hallucinate and he has said some pretty horrible things that he thinks has happened! We didn’t end up getting to see him because he was out cold sleeping, but it might have been for the better right now.
It just breaks my heart because my Grandpa has such a special place in my heart. After I completed his armed service album for him, and we talked about his harrowing experiences, he and I became very close. I am glad to know tho that he knows Jesus but its just so hard to see him the way he is and I really am so heartbroken by what is happening.
Please pray for us as we go through this difficult time and also for clear direction on being able to help them. Since Grandpa is in the nursing home, Grandma is at home all my herself. She doesn’t want to bring him home because she cannot take care of him if something happens and she doesn’t want to feel helpless. So if he stays at a nursing home, she will be alone. We don’t want him to stay in the nursing home on all those drugs that aren’t helping. We already lost a Great Grandma from mistreatment at a nursing home and we don’t want that to happen again.
We are trying to figure out how we can help them whether its having them come to our house or having one of us girls stay with Grandma.
We all are just so sad by this and could really use your prayers.
©AmandaDixon2009
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August 10th, 2009 at 2:10 pm
Oh hun…I am praying so very very hard for you all…I am so sorry this all is happening…you are in my prayers!
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August 10th, 2009 at 2:49 pm
That’s pretty tough. I hope you’re able to cherish the times you still have with him. And the most important thing is that he knows the Lord. In that at least you can rejoice.
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August 10th, 2009 at 2:51 pm
Your in my prayers
Psalm 18:2
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August 10th, 2009 at 3:16 pm
Praying for your family.
Blessings,
Catherine
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August 10th, 2009 at 3:21 pm
So sorry to hear that Amanda. I will be praying for you, your family, your grandmother and grandfather.
Big Hugs!
Jessica
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August 10th, 2009 at 3:36 pm
I’m sorry to hear this. I have gone through this myself and know the emotions involved. It’s hard to see those we love hurting. I am praying peace for you and your family and for wisdom for those who are in the positions to be making decision.
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August 10th, 2009 at 3:41 pm
Big hug sweetie….
I know …I’m pretty sad too! I’m glad you all have each other there to lean on. I feel so helpless here unable to do something! Praying..and thanking God he knows all!
love you,
aunt jen
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August 10th, 2009 at 3:59 pm
I wish you were here!
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August 10th, 2009 at 4:03 pm
Will be keeping you and your grandpa in our prayers!
~ Kira
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August 10th, 2009 at 4:09 pm
I know that is a very hard place and yes I will be praying for all of you, In Him,
blessings, Penny Raine
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August 10th, 2009 at 4:16 pm
Oh dear! I’m so sorry to hear that! I’ll be praying for him and for you!
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August 10th, 2009 at 5:06 pm
Talk about a rock and a hard spot In the nursing home he can get all the most advanced but completely invasive medical care. Keep your spirits up and don’t let it get to you too much. Your love means the most of anything to you grandpa, love never dies.
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August 10th, 2009 at 5:12 pm
It’s so hard when these things happen in families, but at the same time it’s encouraging knowing you have each other and to know that God designed us to have families so we won’t go through these hard times alone.
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August 10th, 2009 at 5:15 pm
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August 10th, 2009 at 5:17 pm
I’m so sorry Amanda!
I’m praying for you and your family! *hugs*
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August 10th, 2009 at 5:45 pm
i am so sorry. you all will be in my prayers!
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August 10th, 2009 at 6:35 pm
Amanda,
You have a beautiful heart towards your grandfather and family. I do hope he gets well and trust all will wrok out for all of you.
Ginger
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August 10th, 2009 at 7:30 pm
Sorry to hear that Miss A. I know how tough that can be. We went through things with my grandparents a number of years ago. Fortunately, we know that God is ultimately in control and we can trust Him. Will be praying for you and your family, sweetie!
love,
Mrs G
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August 10th, 2009 at 8:18 pm
I’m so sorry Amanda. Hugs to you all.
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August 10th, 2009 at 8:25 pm
Amanda- I’m praying for your Grandpa and the rest of your family. That is so heartbreaking. Hugs.
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August 10th, 2009 at 9:52 pm
I completely understand your feelings, my family is going through a similar situation with our grandma. She fell from the stairs a few times, she suffered deppression and she was taking a cocktail of medicines (for deppression combined with her other third age health issues) that affected her mental health deeply. She needs care 24/7 but won’t allow a nurse to take care of her or any strange person in her house.
She has 5 kids and only 2 of them are taking care of her. One of which lives outside the country (my mother) and has to travel back and forth to take care of her.
So I can completely understand your feelings. It’s very hard to see your grandparent evolve into this other person you hardly know. It’s frustrating to see them deteriorate each day and miss their strong spirit and comforting eyes. It’s very sad, but God gives us the strength we need to keep on going and the wisdom we need to make the best decisions for our loved ones’ wellbeing. Will pray for you, your grandpa and family.
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August 11th, 2009 at 4:47 am
Praying for you! Lord, please give the Dixons’ a peace beyond understanding and wisdom on what to do!
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August 11th, 2009 at 8:56 am
I will be praying. We had a time our family was helping take care of a great grandpa during his last few months. It was difficult, but it was a much better environment than a nursing home would have been.
Blessings,
Erik
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August 11th, 2009 at 9:50 am
Oh manda. I’ll be praying for you all!
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August 11th, 2009 at 11:10 am
You are in my prayers.
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August 11th, 2009 at 12:35 pm
You and your family are in my prayers..
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August 11th, 2009 at 5:26 pm
Oh Amanda, I’m so sorry to hear that. You’ll be in my prayers.
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August 12th, 2009 at 1:07 am
I’m so sorry Amanda, dear! I will be praying for you all!
With Love,
Rebekah
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August 12th, 2009 at 1:58 pm
I am so sorry to hear that, I know it’s hard.
This spring my great-grandpa passed away, his situation had been similar, although he had Alzheimer’s.
It was really sad, he wasn’t very aware of his surroundings and sometimes didn’t even recognize my great-grandma.
I hope your grandma lives near you, because I know she will get lonely.
It is a blessing that my family lives close to each other, because my great-grandma doesn’t like being by herself all the time.
She wanted to bring my g-g’pa home, though, which wasn’t realistically possible.
I’ll be praying,
4Him,
~Hannah
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August 12th, 2009 at 4:47 pm
My Poppy was my favorite person. I understand. I will pray for all of you. God bless.
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October 2nd, 2009 at 7:16 pm
Hi Amanda,
Just want you to know I am praying for you, your family & your Great Grandfather. God is still a God of miracles.
(((HUGS)))
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